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Page created June 7, 2004 

One man's collection of essays is another man's blog.  Over the years, I've gotten lots of positive feedback about the writing -- I've got to admit that if I was visiting this site, I'd simply look at the pictures, myself.  But people tell me that my commentary is of interest, too.  So, thus encouraged, here are some thoughts, essays, blogs, whatever. 

Title Post Date Summary
Four Aspects Of Photography May 3, 2007 What does it take to be a complete photographer?
Name Your Heroes August 14, 2005 Who are your heroes?  Name your top three.  Here are mine, and the thinking that made me choose these three people.  Tell me yours.
Negotiating Modeling Fees July 5, 2005 Many photographer-model relationships stumble when they talk money.  Here are some thoughts & bits of advice.   IMPORTANT!
How Do You Find Such Beautiful Women? January 17, 2005 A popular question, but one that inspires philosophy rather than a recitation of facts.
Mystery Photographer August 22, 2004 What can you discern about a photographer by looking at his/her photographs?
Belly August 20, 2004 What I sing in the shower
Old School Photography June 29, 2004 Reminisces
"Summertime" June 7, 2004 Artistic lessons learned, inspired by listening to a surprising rendition of the Gershwin song on the piano.
Experienced vs Inexperienced Models June 16, 2004 The Pros & Cons of working with experienced & inexperienced models, plus the best of both worlds.
Font Note 2004 A Must Read!  I use a lovely font, Tempus Sans, for this web site.  This note will tell you why & where you can get it for free.
Tattoo Rant February 18, 2008
(revised)
How I feel about tattoos & why I try to avoid photographing them.
     

 


Four Aspects Of Photography
May 3, 2007

I've caught myself being inconsistent lately.

I used to always say that there are two aspects to photography that must be kept in balance:  the technical and the aesthetic.

Technical:  Everything involved in recording the appropriate tones on photographic paper.  This involves proper exposure, development, printing (dodging & burning), toning, scanning, editing, etc. 

Aesthetic:  One can make a technical masterpiece of exceedingly boring subject matter.  Aesthetics involve the appeal & emotional impact of the image.  This includes composition, timing, lighting setup, perspective, etc.


For a long time, I was happy with all this, but I realized that I've also been talking about a couple of additional aspects.  In particular...

Managing the moment:  Choosing the exact moment to release the shutter is important, and included in this is manaing the session to get the reaction from the model at that perfect moment.  I don't like asking a model to smile -- I prefer to make them smile.  I would rather the model reacts than acts.

"Professionalism":  I've often stated that finding, selecting, and negotiating with models is part of the artistic process, so the fourth aspect is how one conducts oneself.  For example, what kind of references do your models provide for you.


My point is that a truly successful photographer needs to be skilled in all four of these aspects.  If one skill set is askew, the photographer's abilities will be limited.

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Name Your Heroes
August 14, 2005

Here's a brain exercise for you:  
Name three people, living or dead, who you consider your top three
heroes
.
Explain your thinking.  (Choosing family or friends is okay, I guess, but it would be disappointing).

Here's my top three heroes:

  • John Lennon

  • Muhammad Ali  (Honorable mention:  Jack Johnson)

  • Albert Einstein

These three fellows are widely known & are acknowledged as "geniuses" of their fields, but that's not why I chose them.  I chose them because each of these folks were original thinkers.  They had a vision that was different from everyone else in the world, and for certain significant parts of their lives, they were ostracized for their unconventional thinking.  Each paid a heavy price for seeing things differently, but they stayed true to their vision, and in the end, they changed the perception of the world significantly towards their vision.

Lennon was perhaps credited with the breakup of the most popular musical group of all time, and perhaps that is true.  But while Paul McCartney was writing "Maxwell's Silver Hammer" (fluff), Lennon was writing "Give Peace A Chance" (heartfelt significance).  The Beatles were ridiculed for their long hair and for their challenges to authority.  Once the Beatles broke up, Lennon was nearly deported because of his stance against the War In Vietnam.  But in the end, his voice was heard, the war ended, and we learned to be a bit more accepting to people of dissenting opinion.

Einstein created a whole school of physics using nothing but his observation & his imagination.  Yet, he was a German Jew in pre-World War II Germany and had to flee his home country.  A pacifist, he wrote his famous letter to the President urging the U.S. to begin experiments in nuclear power.  Perhaps the saddest thing in the world is that the most significant invention coming from Einstein's theories is the atom bomb.

Ali was triply cursed.  He was hated because of his trash talking -- he made trash talking an art.  I've got to admit that I don't like trash talking, but I've also got to admit that unlike most trash talkers, Ali delivered on his boasts.  Ali was hated & feared because of his conversion to Muslim -- many thought he was "faking", but he still is devoted today.  Finally, he was hated because he refused induction into the Army -- he said (something like) "No Viet Cong never called me nigger".  At the time, conventional thinking was that anyone refusing to be drafted was a coward or a traitor, but truth be told, Ali's stance took a lot of courage.  As a result, he lost his title & lost the ability to prize fight for what probably was the three most productive years of his life -- still, despite all that, he stayed true to his stance.  That stance contributed to the end of a war.

I don't see that many heroes nowadays -- I'll have to think about it more.  Instead, I see the Dixie Chicks retracting their statements about President Bush or the Rolling Stones saying that their new song isn't about Bush -- that's political correctness due to fear and/or greed.  That is hardly a heroic stance. 

So, who are your heroes?  I'd really like to know.

 

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Negotiating Modeling Fees
July 5, 2005

As I write this, there's a bit of a brouhaha going on in the community over modeling fees.  In one instance, a visiting "old school" photographer is a bit offended when a model asks for a modeling fee for over a half day's worth of work.  In another instance, another local photographer has called a model's requested fee "irrational"; worse, rather than making a counter offer, he brought his issues to a wide e-mail distribution list of local photographers & was shot down (including some inappropriate personal attacks).  Further, in some cases, the model's feelings were hurt, which can be discouraging (something no one wants).

So, first some random observations:

  • We photographers tend to pay models by the amount of time spent in front of the camera, but a model's time commitment can be significantly greater.  For example, for a two hour sitting, a model might commute 90 minutes or more each way, plus time primping (shaving, plucking, applying makeup, gathering wardrobe & props, etc.), plus photographer's small talk time.  Thus, she may get paid for two hours, but she might work for six or more.

  • It ain't fair, but some models are simply worth more than others.  Models vary in their appeal, beauty, ability to present themselves, posing limits, comfort, attitude, confidence, preparation, poise, grace, and most importantly, chemistry with the photographer.  Simply put, some models are more valuable to a photographer than others.  (In other words, not all high school basketball players are Lebron James.)

  • The photographer who called for "rational rates" noted that at $100 an hour, a model could stand to earn $200,000 per year.  Hardly!!!  Most models are lucky to get one modeling job per week, and at most for a couple of hours.  The best models (at my level) can earn maybe $20,000 a year if they are lucky, certainly not enough to support themselves.  Nearly all of the models here earn just a little bit of "mad money"; very, very few of these models are making a career out of modeling.

  • I've noticed that as my skills increased, I started employing models with improved skills.  It is more likely that the improvement in my ability as a photographer is directly related to the fact that I've used more experienced models.

  • I've also noticed that models are more flexible with their fees with photographers of greater skills -- perhaps sad but true, beginner photographers are not likely to get significant breaks in modeling fees.  Or perhaps another force is at work here -- as my skills increased, I was better able to treat models well, with respect & support & joy, and perhaps that factor, more than my improved skill, makes models more generous to me.

  • Sad to say, but some photographers get caught up in distractions & fail to treat models as people worthy of respect.  I understand that especially for beginner photographers, the technical details can be overwhelming.  But advice to photographers -- you are photographing a person, and if that person isn't happy, you won't get too many worthy images.

  • Someday, I'll write an essay about "keepers" and the "keeper ratio" -- suffice to say here that with some models, my "keeper ratio" is higher than when I work with others.  Thus, some models are more valuable to me than others.

  • Models work hard!!!  Sure, you may think that sitting around on cushions without any clothes is easy work, but it's not.  During the sitting, the best models are focused.  They are flexing their muscles.  They are sucking in their tummy.  Many models have great discipline in their diet & exercise routines day in & day out.  They are using their creativity to interpret the photographer's direction.  They have practiced a variety of methods for presenting themselves.  

  • Let's not forget that models are taking the greater risk -- society judges their morality more strongly than they do the photographers, and models are occasionally prey to unscrupulous photographers.

  • My prediction:  no one who has posed for nude photographs will ever be President of the United States.

  • Negotiating a modeling fee is like any negotiation -- know your limits.  Just because a model feels that she needs $X, that doesn't mean that the photographer can afford $X.  Either make a counter offer or politely walk away.  It is quite inappropriate to feel insulted or to lecture a model for her "irrational" rates.  Remember, it isn't the model's fault that you can't afford $X.

  • Traveling models deserve a higher rate, because they have additional expenses, including lodging, transportation, food, etc.  

  • Some photographers say or think "A model should be honored to pose for me and shouldn't require compensation", to which I'd say, "Get over yourself!".  If you think you are that good, you are probably not growing as an artist.  A corollary:  not all models want prints or CDs, and you shouldn't assume that such is part of the compensation in all cases.  Remember the Golden Rule -- treat models as you would want yourself treated.  

  • If a photographer fails to compensate the model is some way, then the ownership of any resulting images can be brought into question.  Thus, model releases & compensation in some form are important.

  • Sure, there are cheap models out there, willing to pose for free or TFP (trade for prints) or a very low rate.  These models tend to be less experienced & less skilled at posing.  It's probably true that you get what you pay for.  For me, experience is very, very important in a model -- I may occasionally work with an inexperienced model, but I feel that I've got to work hard teaching them how to model, and as a consequence, I don't get many good images.  Some inexperienced models simply don't even move -- you've got to talk them through poses.  At some point, photographing a bowl of fruit would be less frustrating.

  • I'm willing to guess, with high confidence, that those photographers who complain about high or "Irrational" modeling rates are not very skilled or good; conversely, those photographers who strive to take care of their models are much more likely to be successful and much more likely to get repeat sittings from models.  Further, with past successes, models are more likely to be generous to photographers who have treated them well.

  • A life spent being generous is a life well spent.

I've also observed that photographers consider many crazy things when trying to determine a modeling fee:

Relevant Factors  Irrelevant Factors 
  • Photographer - Model chemistry
  • Likelihood of producing the desired images with this model.
  • Likelihood of producing better than expected images with this model. 
  • What the model has to do to pose for you (e.g. travel, time commitments, other expenses).
  • Nature of the poses (e.g. nude models tend to get paid more than swimsuit models).
  • Whether the model is a full time or part time model.
  • What other models are getting paid.
  • Whether the model is desperate for cash.
  • Whether the model has a full time job, a part time job, is a college student, etc.
  • How good the photographer thinks he is.
  • How much the hourly rate translates into a yearly income (hourly rate X 40 hours a week X 50 weeks a year).

So, some advice:

For Photographers: 

  • Research the model and understand her past work.

  • Have a clear idea of what you want to do, what kind of images you want to make, and communicate this to the model.  The nature of the sitting is a key component for the negotiation.  Don't stray from the parameters you've laid out -- otherwise, you may find yourself at best renegotiating the modeling fee in the middle of the sitting (a real turn-off, if you ask me).  Things to communicate:

    • What, if anything, will the model be wearing?

    • What style are you trying to achieve?  Show the model some examples.

    • Who will be at the sitting?

    • How will you use the images?

    • What does your models release look like?

    • How much time will the sitting require?

    • Where the sitting will take place?

    • Do you get income from your images?

    • etc.

  • Never change the parameters of the sitting.  It is the height of inappropriateness to ask a swimsuit model to pose nude at the sitting -- stay within the limits you've already negotiated.

  • Just because you are having fun, that doesn't mean that it's okay to go over the time parameters set.  Be organized enough to ensure that you are done on time.

  • Understand & appreciate what you are asking the model to do, including her commute time, preparations, etc.

  • Treat your model well -- you are more likely to have a successful sitting with a happy model.

  • Have a clear idea about how you want to compensate the model.

  • I will note & acknowledge that some successful photographers are in a position to pay little to nothing to models (other than TFP).  That's fine, as long as the model is comfortable with such an arrangement.  Two thoughts on this:

    • Just because a model accepts TFP from another photographer, that doesn't mean that she'll accept the same arrangement from you.  That other photographer may be offering her images that are different from the other images in her portfolio.

    • Some other factors may have influenced the model to accept a TFP/low priced/free arrangement.  For example, I've bartered posing time for web site creation, lodging, business card creation, and other things.

    • It is quite possible that the model may or may not think your images by themselves are worth her time.  Don't take it personal if a model declines a TFP offer -- she may have enough images of herself in your style, or she may be too busy not to accept some kind of compensation.

  • As a general rule, better photographers will need better models, and better models deserve better compensation (at least that's my thinking).  As your skills increase, you may have to find ways to find better compensation.  Speaking personally, my skill increased greatly when I started accepting donations on this web site, and those donations in part helped me find the funds to pay better models.  Or, in other words, as we get older, our hobbies become more expensive; some hobbies will have to generate some income in order to help pay for themselves.

  • Know your limits.  Sometimes a model need more compensation than you can afford.  If this is the case, be professional & supportive.  Make a counter offer -- most models expect this.  If you can't agree to a rate, it's okay to say "Sorry, but I can't afford that" and walk away.  But never, never, never act insulted or huffy, never call a model "irrational", never lecture the model, never tell the model she's not worth that, etc.  Do that often enough, and you'll run out of models. 

  • I know that several models have been generous to me (and I greatly appreciate it!).  Sometimes this is because they know that I really don't have a real job, and I can sometimes be strapped for cash.  Sometimes this is because I strive to help them out (for example, I'll send out e-mail notices to local photographers when a model is looking for work).  Sometimes, for traveling models I've met & feel comfortable with, I'm willing to put them up in my guest room.  I've helped models with web sites.  I've helped models create business cards.  I have a local resource page that lists information (including available models); I share this page with traveling photographers.  I strive to create an artistic community in the area.  All these factors contribute in subtle ways on occasion.

For Models: 

  • It doesn't hurt to understand what the local going rate is.  Talk with local photographers & models. 

  • Especially talk to local models -- they are a great resource & are often willing to share information including how much modeling fees they are able to collect.  In particular, try to find models who have worked for your photographer.  And by the way, local models will help you avoid those photographers who are worth avoiding.  One note, though -- not all models are paid the same rate; don't be surprised if you can't get the same rate as the top model in the area, especially if you don't have the same level of experience or skills.

  • It's also a good idea to know something about your photographer.  Some are cheapskates, some are simply strapped for cash, some are hobbyists, some earn revenue through photography.  Some might have a style that is new or interesting to you, and it's always good to extend the range of your portfolio (i.e. you may be more open to TFP with some photographers than with others).

  • You get to set the amount that satisfies you.  If the local rate is less than that, you may not be able to find work.

  • Don't agree to terms that aren't satisfactory to you.  Some of the best deals you make are the ones you walk away from.  Accept only those deals that will allow you to arrive at the sitting with the right attitude.

  • It's up to you whether you want to include TFP or CDs as part of your negotiations.

  • Don't renegotiate the fee once it has been agreed upon (unless of course, the photographer changes the parameters of the sitting).

For Both: 

  • This is a negotiation.  Prepare for some give-and-take, and definitely don't agree to a rate that would leave you feeling resentful.

  • Sad but true -- the person who makes the first offer (first one to mention a price) is at a disadvantage.

  • If you don't like an offer, make a counter offer or walk away.  Don't get huffy.

  • Remember:  just because one side wants $X, that doesn't mean the other side should accept or can afford $X, and there is nothing personal about that.

  • If the two of you can't reach a middle ground, be sure to part ways without any emotional outbursts.  Who knows, someday perhaps you will work together.  Don't burn bridges.  Don't punish the other side if you can't reach an agreement.

  • Models talk to models, and photographers talk to photographers -- if a negotiation fails with hard feelings, your ability to make future agreements can be at risk.  Treat each other with professional respect, even if (or especially if) you cannot reach an agreement.  Or, in other words, a news of a bad, unprofessional negotiation will be spread around.

Final thought:  Finding, selecting, and negotiating with the "right" model is a crucial part of the artistic process, and the money issues can be distracting.  Be fair, be generous, be considerate, be respectful, and things will work out.

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How Do You Find Such Beautiful Women?
January 17, 2005

I'm writing this less than a week after posting Jessica's second sitting images.  On the day of our sitting, I walked over to the Light Rail stop to meet her.  The stop, near the Central Library, was crowded, and the day was cool, and I was struck by how she blended into the crowd of pre-Christmas shoppers.  Jessica is about 5'4", and she was wearing jeans, a comfy sweater, and a warm jacket.  When she first posed for me, about a year ago, she had purple hair, but now her hair was a natural brunette.  On the street there that late morning, Jessica looked like every young college student I've ever seen.  Our eyes met, she smiled, we embraced, we walked back to my house, and we made several beautiful images.

There is a scientific principle -- I'm sorry but I don't recall its name -- that basically says that the act of observing a phenomenon  changes the phenomenon.  I think that this is central to all good photography -- photography is all about light & observation.  During our interactions, my affection for Jessica has grown.  As I've said, she is a very impressive young woman, and when I get her in front of my camera, I get a moment to take a deep breath, and then I get to look at her.  I look at her, and I see her.  You might see a lovely, athletic, nude woman, but I see a bright, curious, hard-working, sweet, energetic, natural talent.  

I should point out that I don't feel friendly and/or close to most of my models.  Usually, it is sufficient for me if my models leave the sitting feeling respected & appreciated; it is definitely a bonus if she leaves feeling happy & excited to see the resulting images.  In nearly all of my sittings, this is what happens.  Occasionally, I run across a model, and we just don't have the right chemistry.  It's no one's fault; it's just something that happens.  That's rare, but it happens.  With Jessica -- I greatly enjoy the time I get to spend with her, whether it's when we are making pictures or when we are just touching bases on the phone.

So, the real question is this:  how does my affection for Jessica contribute to the resulting images?  I contend that it has a great impact.  She is comfortable & confident when she is posing for me.

When I look at photographs of people (clothed or not), I often finding myself looking for that kind of contact between the model & the photographer.  There is an awful lot of stuff going on during a sitting:  one has to place lights, calculate exposure, compose the photograph, instruct the model, get the right angles, check how the background is contributing to the photograph, keep an eye on the time, make sure that we aren't running out of film, ensure that the camera is appropriately set, and all such details.  But what separates beginners from advanced photographers is that advanced photographers can get all those details right while managing the relationship with the model.  I see tons of photographs of models who have nothing to do but sit around & zone out; I don't much like these photographs.  It is better to engage the model.

So, how do I find such beautiful women?  First, I've got to believe that they are beautiful.  

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Mystery Photographer
August 22, 2004

Several years ago, when I was making dance photographs, I had lunch at The Good Earth with my dancer friend, Kristy.  We were there mostly just to get together, but we were going to discuss her dancing for me.  Once we sat down & ordered, she showed me some other photographs of her dancing.  I glanced at them & said, "I can tell you a lot about the person who made these photographs."

"Oh?  What can you tell me?"

"I can tell you that the photographer used a 35mm SLR camera, was about 5'7" tall, was female, and had brown hair."

Kristy's eyes got wide.  "That's amazing!  How did you do that?"

Well, the 5'7" was easy.  I'm about 6'0", and Kristy was about 5'4".  Whoever made the photographs held the camera up to her eye, and the perspective was higher than Kristy's eye but lower than where my eye would be.  Thus, I was able to deduce the height of the photographer and the fact that she used a SLR.  By the quality of the prints & the graininess of the film, I was able to guess that 35mm film was used.

"Okay.  But how did you know that the photographer was a woman?", asked Kristy.

That's a little more difficult, but women tend to approach photography differently than men.  Their sense of composition is different.  More often than not, men tend to align one edge of their photographs with the horizon, while woman are not so constrained by gravity.  Kristy's photographs were at all sorts of angles -- if she pointed one arm towards the sky, the photograph's edge would follow the line of Kristy's arm.  In addition, in nearly all of these photographs, Kristy's head was dead center in the picture, and the photographer didn't care that the background was distracting -- there was an open door in the background, or a chair, or all sorts of irrelevant objects.  Men care about things like that -- they tend to want everything inside the image frame to be relevant; women just tend to center the object of interest.  By looking at the style of the photographs, I was able to guess with a good amount of certainty that the photographer was a woman.  

(Try that yourself sometimes.  Look at a photograph or a painting or some other kind of visual art, and try to guess whether the artist is male or female.  Once you get the hang of it, you'll find that you are right 80% of the time.  If you are an artist yourself, being aware of this difference can help you experiment with different styles.  Go ahead -- give it a try.)

"Okay, I can see that," said Kristy.  "But how did you know that Jean had brown hair?"

"Lucky guess."

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Belly
August 20, 2004

(Accompanied by slaps on the belly, usually in the shower)

I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)
I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)

I got too much belly,
Gotta waddle 'cross da floor,
I got too much belly
Gonna eat some more.

I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)
I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)

Peanut butter cookies,
And choc'lit mousse,
Gonna eat 'em all up,
M'belt's never loose.

I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)
I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)

I got too much belly,
It's drivin' me insane,
When I take a little off,
I put it on again.

I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)
I got too much belly (slap-slap-SLAP-slap-SLAP)

What do you sing when you are alone in the shower? 

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Old School Photography
June 29, 2004

This web site has been around since late 1997.  Here you'll find dozens of models, over 2000 images comprising over 50 different photographic sessions.  And I realize that I haven't talked much about how I got started in photography or how I learned to do what I do.  So, here goes.

When I was about 14, I spent one summer at an art school in Michigan.  I originally went to work with film, but my films were pretty awful.  The good news, however, is that I discovered that I had an innate appreciation for good light.  With a borrowed Pentax Spotmatic SLR camera, I made tons of portraits of my friends at the school, and many of those were very good.  Those portraits were particularly inspiring.  I returned from that school with an interest in photography, but I had no equipment.

The following school year, I was walking around my neighborhood & stumbled upon a friend's father who was packing up some photographic equipment to be carted off.  I volunteered to take the lot off of his hands, and that was that.  On that day, I got my first camera, as it turns out, it was a classic -- an old Nikon S or S2 camera (I'm not sure which, but I suspect it is an S2) -- that camera is about as old as I am.  The collection also included darkroom equipment -- I don't have the enlarger anymore, but I still use the trays & tongs.  

Anyhow, I got an Army surplus gas mask bag, in which I carried the camera, its filters, extra film, a light meter, a gray card, lens cleaning materials, and other various gadgets.  It got to the point that I carried that camera everywhere -- it was totally natural for me to sling that Army surplus bag over my shoulder as I went about my day.  And I'd highly recommend that to anyone, especially people just starting out.  The things I photographed:

  • Anything that was well lit.

  • Landscapes.

  • Patterns.

  • My neighborhood.

  • My friends. 

By the time I got to college, I was in the habit of exposing about 2 36-exposure rolls of film each & every week, and I'd print maybe a third of those.  I felt naked without that camera bag -- it followed me everywhere, including to class.  Heck, it felt weird to leave it behind when I went to the bathroom!

Sometime during college (in Northern Vermont), I tried my first nudes, but I wasn't comfortable or ready with it.  For the most part, I photographed landscapes & portraits.  Also during college, I took my first & only photography course, learning the basics of film exposure, film development, and printing.  But I hung out with the other photographers a lot -- I remember our "photo orgies"; trips for photography only.  I remember being stranded on the coast of Maine for a few days, doing nothing but making pictures & eating frozen Jello.

There were some to-be famous people at that college; I have photographs of David Mamet & William H. Macy long before they became famous (well, Mamet was semi-famous then, but Billy certainly wasn't -- he was a fellow student who lived in my first dorm).  Remember, this was the early 70s.

Gradually, I grew up, I guess.  I graduated college, worked in social services for a while, went to grad school, earned a M.S. in Computer Science, and got a "real job" as a software engineer in California.  I was offered a position in New Hampshire, and I seriously considered it because I loved living in New England, and I loved living in New England because of the wonderful natural light there.  But in the end, I took the job in California because the Bay Area was the old stomping ground of many of the photographers I admired (like Edward Weston).

Somewhere along the line, I lost my youthful vitality, and the "real job" / career took up much more of my time & energy.  Plus, the general overhead of being a grown-up (e.g. laundry, insurance, taxes, grocery shopping, cooking, house cleaning, etc.) -- all this ate into my photography time.  I entered an artistic dust bowl -- I didn't do much photography, and the old stuff just wasn't inspiring to me.  I was concerned about losing my photography because of my job & my grown-up responsibilities.

A significant turning point came when I read a notice in a local paper -- it was a call for auditions to a local production of A Chorus Line.  I didn't want to perform, but I figured that I had never photographed dancers before, and perhaps the production company would welcome a photographer.  As it turned out, there's this scene in the show where the dancers all hold up head shots, so they needed a photographer.  They were very, very, very, very, very supportive there, and I threw myself into the production, helping with everything.  And we had access to the theater -- several dancers stayed late to do some dance photography, while the director stayed late with us to run the lights.  We created some terrific dance photographs -- many of the dance photographs on my web site came from that production.  I consider the dance photographs to be some of the most creative stuff I've ever done.  (If you haven't looked at the dance photography, you should.)  After the production completed, I continued doing some dance photography for several months, but doing that kind of dance photography was logistically difficult.

Soon after that, I started doing nude photography.  I did it because I thought it would be difficult & a challenge, especially the part about finding people to model for me and being comfortable being with them while they were unclothed.  I won't talk much about that -- there's plenty here on this web site to learn about my nude photography.

The interesting thing is that this:  just before I did the dance photography, I moved from 35mm to 2¼" camera.  I think I had a twin lens reflex camera for a while, but I didn't like it; at this time I had a Bronica ETR camera, which made negatives that were 2¼" x 1¾".  Now I use a Bronica GS1 camera, which makes negatives that are 2¼" x 2¾".  Guess what -- neither of those cameras fit into an Army surplus gas mask bag.  I started doing studio or production sessions exclusively, and lately I've been missing the casual aspects of carrying a camera around as I go about my day in my neighborhood.  That's one of the advantages of the new digital camera.  Go look at the pictures I make with itLook at this recent picture -- I like it a lot.  Those pictures feel like the old days to me -- they might not be high art, but I enjoy it, especially since I don't have to devote darkroom time to those images.

Summary:  it's never a bad idea to bring a camera along.  Don't take your photography too seriously.  Be willing to make an image of anything at any time.  The goal of photography isn't the photograph -- the whole idea is what you go through to make the photograph.   

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"Summertime"
June 7, 2004

It won't be a surprise to you, but I am a visual person.  While I only have skills as a photographer, I am a great admirer for drawings, paintings, and sculpture.  Last week, I went to an evening gallery opening -- one of the larger art galleries in town had an open house.  As I wandered among the paintings (good stuff, but not great), I became immediately aware of someone playing the piano in the background.  First off, the selection -- the musician was playing Summertime, from Gershwin's Porgy & Bess.  My favorite genre of music is the intersection between blues & jazz, and if I were to draw up a list of the best songs ever written, Summertime would be in the top five.  In fact, in my CD collection, there are at least three versions of this song on various CDs, and I believe that this song appears on over 2000 albums.  Most versions are all fully orchestrated and all feature someone's vocals, but this was a solo piano rendition.

But by no means did I feel cheated -- I love this song because it is both simple & complex, because it expresses contentment & yearning at the same time, and because it stirs me.  This pianist was doing a wonderful job -- just 10 fingers & 88 keys, but the performance had depth & distinction.  The style was interesting -- at all times, the performance was faithful to the song's score, but there were lots of fascinating riffs & explorations.  Some worked well, some fumbled & were abandoned, and throughout that wonderful bass line kept everything together.  Professor Longhair, the progenitor of the loose style of piano playing (a style adopted by Harry Connick, Jr. and Dr. John), did this -- he embraced the song, and he may stumble in places, but in all, his humanity further enhanced the performance.  (Professor Longhair's rendition of the New Orleans classic, Tipitina, is the best.)

I am reminded of an anniversary party I attended a dozen years ago.  In attendance was a woman who was a popular singer in the early 60's, and as a gift to the celebrating couple, she sang an anniversary song for the gathering.  Technically, she was close to perfect -- with great concentration, she hit every note, kept perfect time, and in all gave us a performance that was, frankly, a bit lacking in humanity.  I can't define it, because every note was perfect, but because her focus was on the technique & not the song, the performance was, well, empty.  Afterwards, she asked everyone in attendance for their opinion.

That was an intriguing aspect of this performance of Summertime -- the pianist wrapped the song around their shoulders & pranced around the room, with no regard of whether he/she was dancing a classical ballet or a silly fandango.  Suddenly, he/she would double the tempo, for just a little while, or slow it down & embraced the bass line.  I stopped seeing the paintings & sculptures & just listened to the piano.   

I turned a corner in the gallery & caught sight of this piano player.  To my incredulous surprise, the person playing the piano was a 13 year old girl!  She was wearing a simple white blouse & a modest skirt, but she would have been more comfortable in a pink T-shirt with unicorns & rainbows on it.  I was simply floored that this ... child ... was able to take a complex song like this one and produce the best performance of it that I've ever heard.  We aren't talking about a precocious 13 year old, we aren't talking about someone who is "pretty good for a 13 year old" -- we are talking about a true prodigy, the first I ever met or seen.

And in this is a lesson -- unlike the anniversary party singer, she was unconcerned about achieving a perfect performance.  She was also unconcerned about mundane life requirements like a mortgage or insurance or laundry or grocery shopping.  It was just her enjoying her song.  So she tries a riff that doesn't work -- who cares?  I wouldn't say that her performance was fearless, although "fearless" would be an appropriate term if that performance was done by an adult.  Rather, she was blithely unaware of my reaction -- she was simply who she was, and that was that.

Years ago, I had the pleasure of meeting Ruth Bernhard, one of the best photographers of the 20th Century.  She must have been in her late 70s then, and a small group of us took a walk.  She was holding court for us, and we were listening to every word she said.  But somewhere along the way, we were conversing & we noticed that Ruth was no longer with us.  We turned back, and there she was, picking up a pine cone, turning it around, moving it in the dappled sunlight beneath the trees lining the sidewalk.  She was fascinated.

I'm reminded that people talked about scientific geniuses like this.  Albert Einstein was said to be childlike in his approach -- he didn't know or care about what was or wasn't possible; he was simply in his own world.  So are great artists -- the best ones are childlike; otherwise they can't show us something new.  

In part, here is why I don't devote more energy to photography, in particular why I don't sell photographs.  It's all I can do to manage the occasional sitting, and I am often distracted by worrying about finances (can I afford the modeling fees?) or the errands I haven't quite gotten to or ...  I have a set of expectations for my photography, & I daresay that you visitors do, too, and while making the images, I wonder whether they will meet those expectations & whether the results will be worth the amount of time & money invested in the sitting.  All that makes it difficult for me to experiment, to try something that may or may not work, to break the rules & let go.

If only we can approach art as a 13 year old girl would!  I wish I could figure out how to do that!

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Experienced vs Inexperienced Models
June 16, 2004

Over the years, I've had the pleasure & privilege of working with dozens of models (it ain't bragging if it's true).  Absolutely every model is different, and each has her own strengths & weaknesses.  I've also had the privilege of working with some experienced & professional models, and at the same time, I've worked models with relatively no experience at all.  So, I'm inspired to think about whether I prefer working with experienced or inexperienced models.  Here's some thinking:

Pros

Experienced Models Inexperienced Models
  • Professional models tend to be very attractive.
  • Professional models tend to be very expressive, with their face, their hands, & their body language.
  • Experienced models know how to move; they keep moving & showing the photographers different & subtle variations on the basic pose.
  • Experienced models know how to present themselves well, literally in the best light.
  • Experienced models take direction easily & quickly.  They know how to take a basic idea & go with it.
  • Experienced models often have suggestions.
  • Experienced models have lots of energy, and as a result, a lot of stuff can get done in a short amount of time.
  • Experienced models can be clear about their limits without making you feel that you've done anything inappropriate by asking for something.
  • Like the photographer, experienced models are aware of the direction & quality of the light & can present themselves well in that light.
  • Inexperienced models tend to be very enthusiastic.
  • Everything is new & exciting.
  • Inexperienced models are often inexpensive.
  • It's a pleasure to introduce new models to new experiences.
  • I take pride in helping new models.
  • Inexperience models often show you poses that are unconventional.
  • Inexperienced models often don't have high expectations; it's easy to create images that surprise & delight them.

 

Cons

Experienced Models Inexperienced Models
  • Because sittings with experienced models can be productive, they deserve good (high) modeling fees; thus, working with them can be expensive.  (But let me hasten to add that they typically are worth it!)
  • Some experience models tend to show you that which made them successful -- thus, you tend to see poses that you've seen before.
  • Sometimes, experienced models make me nervous -- will I meet their expectations, will the results compare favorably with their previous work?
  • Sometimes, experienced models can be bored or unenthusiastic.  (Note:  it's the photographer's job to pump up the enthusiasm!)
  • You need to provide a lot of direction to inexperienced models, adjusting their pose precisely.  This slows the session down.
  • Often, inexperience models are self-conscious.
  • Some inexperience models have blank facial expressions & don't know what to do with their hands.
  • Sometimes, inexperienced models won't tell you if they are uncomfortable, but it'll show in their expression & body language.
  • Some inexperienced models have distracting tattoos, hair styles, body modifications, etc.

 

Best Of Both Worlds -- The Ideal Model

  • Okay, I'll say it, I prefer a model who is attractive.  Fortunately, I find lots of women attractive.
  • I love models who are expressive in both face & body language.  You can't be too expressive; I don't even mind the model who is occasionally "silly", in the appropriate context.  
  • I love models who are enthusiastic.  The sitting isn't about making pictures; the sitting is all about having fun, and having a model with a great attitude is the best!
  • It's helpful if a model can move.  They don't have to strike a pose & be still until I make an exposure; they should move & I'll make the exposure at the optimal point.  (Models need to be prepared to repeat movements.)
  • We must be able to agree upon a modeling fee that we are both happy with.
  • The best models are the ones who are not self-conscious at all.
  • I like models who are all-natural.  I will no longer photograph tattoos.

 

One thing in common for all circumstances:  I always like to give the model feedback during the sitting.  I tell her what I'm looking at, what I'm trying to achieve, etc.  I also let her know that she's doing well or that she's looking good.  It never hurts to encourage your model, regardless of their experience level.

 

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